Monday, August 25, 2014

Where I Go When Everything Falls Apart


Last week a member of a special needs group that I belong to post a Bible scripture verse to encourage other special needs parents. Some parents were encouraged, but some parents were very upset and got the post removed.  I know everyone has different beliefs, but I know where I go when everything falls apart. I go to my knees and cry out to God.

I don’t know what I would have done without God by my side during this journey. When we started this journey and my son lost all language and wasn’t responding to his name, I was scared- no terrified. God met me where I was and gave me peace. I felt assurance that he was going to walk along side me in this journey, and I wasn’t going to be completely alone. Yes, there were times in the beginning I was mad and wondered why this was happening to us. I mean I did everything right. I followed the pregnancy diet of the do and do not eat list, I took all my prenatal vitamins, I went to every appointment, I did exercise, and once born, I took my son to all of his appointments to get his shots, and I was so careful of germs (yes, clean freak). I just didn’t understand how this could happen. But, even when I was angry, HE was there. Then, when my son got really sick, and we were in the hospital and seeing specialists, my anxiety could have got the best of me, but he gave me hope and renewed my strength each day.

Where ever you are in this journey, I pray that you also have someone to go to. It is too hard to walk alone.

29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. - Isaiah 40:29-31

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